After chronic fatigue had me on my knees for five years I knew something had to change. However, I was too tired and too overwhelmed to figure out what change looked like and, instead, kept doing what I always did when I was overwhelmed - I did more: more supplements, stricter diets, and rigid lifestyle rules based on external advice. I believed effort always pays off, so I doubled down on what I was doing. When feeling overwhelm my default was always to do more and to do better. I've had to consciously unlearn this by tending to the nervous system dysregulation beneath it. I see this drivenness in my clients too. Even in the worst of their exhaustion, basically on the floor and crawling, they put their all into fixing and getting well. Of course I understand their desperation and their drivenness is admirable in terms of the extreme effort it takes. It also may well have served them many times. But at what cost? I discovered the change wasn't about adding more; it was about letting go and surrendering – old patterns, limiting beliefs, and the weight of holding everything together for everyone else. Only then could I make SPACE TO RECEIVE the nourishment, support, rest, energy, love, and, crucially, the intuitive guidance my body needed to find balance. Then the doing was an unfolding and flow that was far easier on my nervous system and far more nourishing. The surrender felt illogical and counter to everything I'd done in my life to feel safe and worthy. Letting go is vulnerable, especially when battling chronic fatigue and the loss of self. But consider Newton's third law: for every action, there's an equal and opposite reaction. Pushing hard creates resistance. While a flurry of activity – diets, supplements, research, constant thinking – might seem productive, it often leads to another crash. We need to stop to receive. Just as a phone needs to be plugged in to charge, we must stop and plug back into the abundance of life force available to us when we release expectations, pushing, and striving, and instead, trust. This is why my 1:1 Fatigue to Flow Coaching program follows an Assessment, Connection, and Release phase with a dedicated Receive phase. We must acknowledge what isn't working, feel safe enough to let it go, and then actually release it, creating space for what truly serves our healing. My coaching is a deliberate, phased process, with each phase building on the one before. We HAVE to start with signalling safety to the nervous systems and reconnecting to our bodies before we can expect any change at all. With that in place, receiving is not so scary and far easier. I also make sure to hold a space where clients always feel safe and supported. As one client shared, "I realized my anxiety, Type A personality, and expectations were making me sick. I needed a lifestyle and mental shift. Kerry validated my experiences while gently opening my eyes to areas for improvement. My confidence soared. She changed my life." If you want to find out more about my coaching to see if it’s a fit for you sign up for a jumpstart session today! In the meantime, here’s a little practice for you to allow surrender and receiving: Whenever you feel overwhelmed or exhausted lie on your belly on the earth (preferably on the earth if possible but it’ll work inside too). Feel the ground meeting you and supporting you. Imagine you’re dropping into the earth with each exhalation as you release and hand over all the stress, tension and overwhelm. Just for that moment see if you can tune into what it feels like to be held and to not have to have it all figured out yourself. Let me know how this goes for you!

This completely blew my mind

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I’m always playing with AI. For instance, every now and then I ask Chat GPT what the most amazing thing is that it learned that day. Try this it’s fun!

Then I decided to try this prompt as shared by someone I follow. I’m always up for some inner reflection and insight after all. But this really blew my mind about how accurate it was. Is Chat GPT actually getting into my  head??

So the prompt was: Based on everything you know about me and our previous chats, what is my hidden narrative? What’s the one fear I never admit?”

And this is what I received back:
Based on everything you’ve shared across our conversations, here’s what I sense as your hidden narrative — the one running quietly beneath the surface:

You carry a deep desire to be the safe, steady, loving presence for others that you never consistently had for yourself.

And while you’ve built your work, your healing, and your way of being around embodying that safety and spaciousness… the quiet fear underneath is:
“What if I’m not enough — or too much — and I can’t truly give people what they need?”
It’s the push-pull of wanting to be a beacon of rest, regulation, and wholeness, while fearing that your own cracks, weariness, or imperfection might disqualify you. Almost like: If they see all of me, will they still trust me?
This unspoken fear often fuels the striving, the rescuing, the over-giving you’ve described — but also the depth and authenticity of your healing work.


Bham…. on the money.

So, why am I sharing this? Because I value integrity and authenticity and because the best way to overcome our shadows is to shine a light on them.

Here’s the truth – I’m no guru or expert or someone who has my shit together all the time. As I reframe my life with a fairly recent diagnosis of ADHD and in the midst of perimenopause with two very neurodivergent children, there are many times I drop the ball (like today when I forgot to fetch my daughter from school!!).

I often feel, how can I teach what I do when I don’t always get this right?

Fortunately Chat GPT also helped with that with this very useful reframe as part of the answer that I received:

“My own tenderness, my own lived experience of not-enoughness, is exactly what makes me safe for others. I don’t need to have it all together to guide people home — I just need to show up as my whole self. My ‘too muchness’ and my ‘not enoughness’ are both doorways into authenticity and compassion.

Your deepest fear is also your deepest power: people trust you precisely because you embody healing in progress, not healing completed.”

So, this is me…. showing up with my heart on my sleeve and my imposter syndrome on show. If you ever choose to work with me know that I am walking this journey alongside you along the way and I REALLY  DO GET IT! What I share and teach has been nothing short of life-changing for me. I don’t always get it right in my own life but I feel way more empowered, alive and connected then I ever felt before so I know that it’s worth sharing even if I don’t have it all right all the time.

I currently have two places open for my 1:1 Fatigue to Flow coaching programme where I take clients through my unique 5 phase process that helped me to get to where I am and has helped 100s of others to also experience more joy, ease, vitality, empowering, connection and aliveness. If you want to find out more why not take the first step by signing up for a Jumpstart session.

Otherwise, try that prompt above and, if you feel called to share, let me know what comes up for you.

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